Finding Balance Again

by Samantha on July 12, 2010

Balance

For what seems like the millionth time in the past few years, something in my life has changed significantly. My familiar routine is no more, and I have to find a new normal. Maybe normal is the wrong word, because who really knows what that means? Really, all I want is to figure out some sort of balance and be at peace with the way my life is right now.  Just like so many try to find that work/life balance, I’m looking for the balance between no work and life.

Here’s the thing, I want to be diligent about finding a new job without driving myself crazy.  As easy as it would be to form a butt indent in my couch and catch up on crappy TV, I can’t get stuck in that rut. But, I also refuse to spend all day every day worrying about not having a job and searching the boards nonstop.  It’s okay if I spend the morning doing that, and then the afternoon reading in the park. In fact, it’s probably better for my sanity.

I’ve also come across a surprising discovery. Instead of blogging and tweeting more, I’ve been doing both less. Even though I technically have more free time, it’s not part of my new routine yet. The majority of my job was social media. I had Hootsuite open all the time, and it was easy to keep up with company tweets and my own. Now, I have to find a way to make time for these things without getting too sucked in.

I’m also trying to balance being positive with being realistic. There’s no doubt that I’m excited for a new opportunity, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t afraid. It’s been a while since the last time I was jobless, and things were very different then. I was just a little college grad looking for my first real job. Now, I have experience and marketable skills, and I want to use those assets to get myself a job I truly enjoy.

Balance, balance, balance.  I’m just trying to even out my scale, taking things off and putting others on to find the right combination. I’m learning to do things for myself, how to keep myself sane through all of this. If the search becomes too much, I go outside and read for a while, or work out at the gym.  I spend some time looking at wedding dresses online, call my mom, or send an e-mail to a friend. Despite this setback, I’ve got a lot going for me, and I remind myself of that every single day.  Eventually, I will find that balance again.

How do you keep life balanced?

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  • http://twitter.com/_Ashley_Nicole_ Ashley Campbell

    Ugh! Finding a balance when your life becomes less structured (aka no more 9-5) is so tough! Having recently gone through a similar transition, I totally understand what you're going through. It's all about creating a routine and motivating yourself to set new goals, complete projects, and often to just put a bra on and take a shower….Ok maybe that was just me…

    But I want to encourage you to take advantage of this time you have and just spend some time reassessing things. One of the best parts of having that kind of free time for me was that I got so much more “me” time.

    The balance will come, and as soon as it does, your life will change again…But that's what keeps things so interesting :-) I'm so excited to see what's in store for you though!!

  • http://twitter.com/JeremyOrr Jeremy Orr

    wow, Sam, this is EXACTLY what I am going through. There is only so many hours of the day I can spend at my computer looking for teaching jobs that aren't there. It was nice having the world cup games because they gave me routine and something to wake up early for! I'd watch a game, go the the gym, watch the second game, do some job hunting and then go enjoy my afternoon. I have to realign my plans now that I don't have soccer. I have to get out and do something though, so tomorrow I am leaving for Yosemite. Going to do four days backpacking by myself and getting my head right. There really is only so much job hunting you can do and then you just have to say fuck it and go do something for yourself.

  • http://www.blankcanvascoaching.com Rachel Messenger

    Isn't it amazing that, when you have more time, you find yourself doing less? Or, as the case may be, doing more stuff that doesn't make you the person you want to be? Ugggh.

    I sat down this morning and created a routine for myself. No more, “yeah, so, I think I'll blog, and then I'll check out such-and-such on the internet, and then yoga…,” because what that got me was a whole lot of daytime TV.

    Luciano Pavarotti said that sticking to a routine isn't discipline, it's devotion. We're worth the work! We're worth the devotion! And if I literally have to create that devotion and routine from scratch on an Excel spreadsheet to keep myself on task, so be it! Even if we have to put “shower, use soap, dry off, put on bra” on our list. :)

  • http://www.lifeschocolates.com sameve

    I knew you would totally get what I was saying here! I think one thing I'm realizing is that, funny as it sounds, I should set smaller goals like putting on a bra and taking a shower. Some days, that's as far as I'm going to get, and that's okay. This is time off from working, I don't want to burn myself out. I'm definitely taking the time to reassess, and applying to jobs that I would truly enjoy. I'm trying not to settle…we'll see how it goes. Thanks for the advice and words of encouragement!

  • http://www.lifeschocolates.com sameve

    I forgot you were going through this now too! Any time you need to freak out about it, just let me know. Seriously though, you're right. We cannot spend the entire day staring at our computer screens scanning for jobs. We'll go crazy. Your backpacking trip sounds amazing! Kudos for doing whatever you need to do for you :)

  • http://www.lifeschocolates.com sameve

    Rachel: I totally know what you mean. It sounds silly to have to write things down in order to get them done, but when you're home all day, sometimes that's what you have to do. I literally just made a list that includes things such as dishes and put away clothes. Shower would be on there too, but I already did that…and that's only because I went to the gym this morning lol. But seriously, you are SO right. We ARE worth the work and the devotion! Thank you for that reminder!

  • http://akhilak.com/blog Akhila

    It's so true that keeping a balanced life is so hard when you don't have a 9-5 job or school or any activities that you HAVE to do. I guess I haven't gone through this, really, but I find that on weekday evenings and weekends I completely lack balance – I just get addicted to TV shows and stop doing much that is productive outside of work. Bad idea!

    I do find that mapping out your long term goals and then listing out your day to day goals is a helpful tool. Right now, I'm creating a “2nd half of 2010″ goal sheet that lists out specifically what I would like to accomplish in the next 6 months or so. And then, I'm planning to create some weekly spreadsheets that will help keep me on track. That doesn't mean I won't take any time to have fun, but it just means that I'll be able to be more productive outside of work if I have a little nudge to help me get there – in the form of a detailed to do list that I can easily glance at!

  • http://diamondkt.blogspot.com David

    I have a feeling you already think like this, but…

    I’m reading a book right now titled “Zen And The Art Of Happiness” by Chris Prentiss. In it he describes how everything comes at the appointed time. That everything that happens to you is the best possible thing that can happen to you (even if you label a lay off as a “bad” thing, there is a reason it happened at this point in your life, and that it is setting you up for something better down the line). And he assures us that the Universe doesn’t make mistakes.

    Now whether or not that’s all just a bunch of ancient Chinese proverb bullshit, I don’t know. But I like to believe there is some truth to it. Because having that type of mindset is helping me change a negative attitude to a positive one when things are hard and I can’t seem to understand why “bad” things keep happening. Anyway, I’m rambling.

    The point is, layoffs are hard. And keeping one’s sanity through a frustrating job hunt can be even more difficult. So yes, mix it up. Throw a little happy activity inbetween to break up the resume sending monotony. There is nothing wrong with taking a break from blogging and Tweeting. In fact, I’ve done it before and it was great – didn’t miss it a bit! Besides, too much social media rots the brain. ;)

  • Suburban Sweetheart

    I'm not nearly good enough at balance. And I'm about to find myself unemployed, too. Let me know if you come up with any more tips? <3

  • http://www.lifeschocolates.com sameve

    Oh weekends are killer, I know what you mean! It's hard to balance having a life, relaxing, and still being productive. Lists and goal sheets are definitely helpful. Like you said, it doesn't mean you won't take time to have fun, but you'll have some guidelines to make sure you get things done. Great idea!

  • http://www.lifeschocolates.com sameve

    I definitely already think like this. Honestly, my mindset/perspective can be described by a lot of cliches: Everything happens for a reason; What's meant to be will always find its way; Find the silver lining in the cloud…just to name a few. Like what you describe, it sounds like BS, but there's definitely some truth to it all. The way I see it, there are some things that are beyond our control, and they're going to happen to us no matter what we do. I didn't do anything to deserve this layoff, but it happened anyway. So, instead of feeling sorry for myself, I'm looking at it as a new opportunity. I have to say, thinking positively has made it much easier to deal with the situation. Thanks for your insight, and of course, your support :)

  • http://www.lifeschocolates.com sameve

    Don't worry, it's taken me a while to get to this point. Just remember that you control how you react to an unfortunate situation like being unemployed. If you can do what I'm doing and look at it as a new opportunity, and a chance to find something you really love to do, you'll be much happier!

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