Appreciating Solitude {Ashley Campbell}

by Samantha on May 11, 2010

I am a people person. I love talking to others, interacting in person, online, over the phone, whatever. I love making people laugh, talking about my day, and listening to others share as well.

Those of you who know me already know how outgoing I am. Even in kindergarten, I started getting report cards that said, “Ashley is a bright little girl, but she is too social.” This report card trend continued until I reached the age where it was a lost cause to tell my parents I talk a lot…as it was clear they already knew.

I doubt I shocked anybody when I decided to join a sorority in college. 100+ new friends? Yes, please! My freshman year I made what seemed like a million new friends living in an all-girls dorm at The University of Kansas. My sophomore and junior years, I lived in the sorority house with about 80 women. My senior year I lived in a 13 bedroom house with 12 sorority sisters.

My point is that I’ve surrounded myself with people my whole life. I have an amazing support system of family and friends, and I’ve always either lived with them or spent my free time with them. Needless to say, I never had much alone time until I graduated college. I was totally okay with this, until I realized that I didn’t know who I was on my own. I knew exactly who I was when 20 of my closest friends and family were within earshot all day, every day, but that didn’t matter unless I knew who I was without all of the noise.

I spent 22 years of my life relying on others to make me happy. I never just took the time to figure out how I could make myself happy. Maybe I was maturing, but all of a sudden, the girl with 12 roommates was insisting on living alone after graduation.

Now, once again, those of you who know me know that I actually moved back in with my parents after graduation. In fact, I just moved out of their house last week. But, the point is that I knew that’s what I needed. Sure, it was comfortable for me to have someone to come home to every day, but I realized that I cannot rely on someone else to make me happy.

It’s okay to be alone. In fact, it’s great to be alone! I’m a young, very independent woman, with the rest of my life to live with other people, assuming I get married and/or have kids some day. So, of course I appreciate my family and my friends for always being there for me, but right now, I cherish my alone time more than anything else, and I can finally say that I know exactly who I am.

Appreciative Revolutionary: Ashley Campbell (@_Ashley_Nicole_)

Bio: I am a twenty four year old Kansas City native currently freelancing as a social media marketer & copywriter. I consider myself, first and foremost, a philanthropist, as nonprofits are my real passion. I love to write, talk, laugh, learn, observe, cook & play. My blog chronicles some of my own entry level observations as a young professional navigating my new career. I appreciate Sam for her friendship and ability to remind those around her to be thankful.

Favorite ice cream flavor: Ben & Jerry’s Chunky Monkey

I appreciate Ashley’s sincerity, her zest for life, and her positive energy!

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  • emilyjasper

    Ashley, I feel like I read my own story! I was super social and also joined a sorority to be surrounded by people. At one point, however, I also started to feel like I needed to live on my own. I haven't had a roommate in five years, and this summer and fall I'm going to be in for quite the transition. I'm going to stay with my parents for 8 weeks this summer as I transition to grad school. I also made a conscious decision to get a room in the graduate center at school so that I could meet people. The thing I've found is that I'm not actually neighborly unless it's forced. If I moved to a new school, got a single apartment, and never met neighbors, my friends would only be the ones in my program. This way, I'll get back to being with people, but still get some alone time (I'll be in a single). I found I needed a balance: my own space but people around me.

  • http://twitter.com/JeremyOrr Jeremy Orr

    Ashley, just like Emily, this feels like my own story. I am super social, always have been. But every year I take time out and go backpacking. It is an amazing way to get away from it all and just think. No distractions, no one to have to answer to except yourself. I would not be me without those solitary moments. Great job.

  • http://twitter.com/_Ashley_Nicole_ Ashley Campbell

    I think this is something a lot of women go through. Generations before us moved out of their parent's house and into their husband's house and lost a real sense of identity in the process. We are lucky that our parents are there for us and allowed me to stay with them after graduation and are taking you in for 8 weeks before grad school, but we are also lucky that we have the freedom to live on our own. I wish you luck with the move and grad school! Very exciting!

  • http://twitter.com/_Ashley_Nicole_ Ashley Campbell

    Thanks Jeremy! I'm glad to hear people can relate. I used to think that most people were either super social or not social at all and that there was no in-between. Good to know it's okay to be a little of both!

  • Dmbosstone

    “I spent 22 years of my life relying on others to make me happy. I never just took the time to figure out how I could make myself happy.”

    I'm not totally there yet- I don't know if I need others or someone to make me happy entirely. I am happy with where I am, where I am going, and hopeful to accomplish some great things. Even though I'm really outgoing and social like the rest of us here- where I have lots of shallow connections I often find myself yearning for something deeper- but I don't know where I can find it.

    For me appreciating solitude is something I have done for too long- I want to go out and appreciate others and to have others appreciate me.

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