I’ve been talking to some new friends lately about the things that have been going on in my life over the past couple of years. When I tell them about my mom being sick, and being stuck in the middle of stuff with my parents, they’re always amazed that I’m not depressed or bitter or crazy…or all of the above. Some people have even said they admire me for how well I’m dealing with things, and while I totally appreciate the compliment, it’s not something I ever expected to hear. After all, I’m not doing anything special. I’m just dealing with things the best way I know how, and continuing to live my life.
Believe me, it’s been a learning process, and I’m much more sane now than I was even a year ago. Life throws some pretty mean curveballs, sometimes two or three at a time, so you just have to take it a day at a time. There are days when I don’t deal so well. Everything becomes too overwhelming and I freak out. Sometimes I cry, and sometimes I just sit still and shake my head, wondering how this became my life. But, I only let the pity party last so long. Because when it comes down to it, I am grateful to be alive. I’m grateful to have two parents who love me very much. I’m so lucky to have a supportive boyfriend and great friends. That’s the only way I know how to deal with it, by reminding myself that it could be far worse, and trying to stay as positive as possible.
We’re all going to have days, weeks, sometimes even months, that totally suck. There will be experiences and events that challenge every fiber of our being. My best advice is to maintain perspective, and don’t go it alone. Find people who truly support you and who will actually be there for you when you need them. And let them be there. I know firsthand that this is easier said than done, but what I’ve discovered is that the best friends are the ones who tell you to shut up and stop apologizing. There’s no secret formula, no special potion. I’m just a girl, trying to make the most out of life as I know it. If I can do it, so can you.