In four days, I am getting married. FOUR DAYS!! There are so many emotions running through me right now that it would be impossible to describe them all. The strongest is what I would call nervous excitement. The nerves are a combination of the fact that I’ve been planning this day for more than a year, and the “whoa, I’m going to be married” realization. The excitement is everything else.
To be honest, being married isn’t going to change much about our everyday lives. We’ve been together more than six years, and lived together more than two. I’m changing my name, and adding soon-to-be husband to my insurance…but that’s about it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I’m not excited about getting married…I’m really excited, that’s my point! Just because it’s not a drastic day to day change doesn’t mean it’s not an awesome, important, happy one.
I’m also incredibly excited for the wedding itself. I’m sure you can all relate to planning something extensively and looking forward to it for a long time. I’ve been praying to the weather gods, and I hope everything comes together, but even if things aren’t exactly perfect, I know it will still be a beautiful day. What I’m really looking forward to, aside from wearing my pretty dress and being princess for a day, is having (almost) all of our family and friends in one place to celebrate with us. There have been far too many sad things in my life the past few years, and I am so glad that we will all be together for a happy reason this time.
It’s funny, in a way, that I’m getting married before most of my friends. When I first started to look at boys as more than just cootie catchers, I was awkward and tall. I grew to my current height at around 5th grade. I’ve always been on the quieter side, and often found myself the best friend of the pretty, outgoing girls. I never really resented my friends for getting the guys’ attention, but it did get old after a while. I didn’t have my first kiss until I was 16 (yes, really), and my first boyfriend was a summer love at overnight camp. I met Rob the summer before sophomore year of college, and as cliche as it sounds, I knew pretty quickly that this was something special. Let me tell you, I wouldn’t have driven five hours back and forth to Ithaca so many times if I didn’t think we were in it for the long haul. When we met, neither of us was looking for a relationship. It’s just proof that sometimes it’s when you stop looking for something that it finds you.
It’s going to be weird once the wedding is over. Planning has taken up a lot of my time in the past year, and to not have that is a bit hard to imagine. Not that I’m complaining. It will be nice to be able to re-prioritize and work on some things that have been on the back burner. Despite the stress, I’ve really enjoyed spending extra time with my parents, and it’s been kind of nice that they’ve had to collaborate and focus on their love for me. There’s been a little less negativity, and I’m scared that won’t be the case anymore, but I guess we’ll see what happens.
This is going to be my last post for a week or so. I’ll be a little busy 
But, I will still be around Twitter for a few days, and I will be sure to post a picture on Sunday! Thanks to all of you for supporting me and this blog! Much love.
